I've posted about orthorexia on here before, but if anyone could help me I'd be really grateful:

It started about 2 years ago when I read this book by Ulrich Strunz (if anyone's from Germany, he'll know what I mean). He basically tells you all you need to know about "good" nutrition etc. I started getting really obsessive about it cos I thought it would make me feel better. Now here I am, 2 years later, with full blown orthorexia. I think A LOT about food, I worry about getting the right nutrients etc. I know, it's pathetic and it makes me feel like shit. Every time I'm in a bad mood or I'm arguing with someone, I think that it's just because I haven't eaten enough etc. I mean, what the hell?? I think it's ridiculous to think that way and I wanna break that vicious cycle. Any ideas on how to do so? I don't wanna go see a therapist or something cos I've had some bad experiences.

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i took a medical anthropology courses that dealt with this subject.
i'm just curious: do you feel bad for people who eat poorly?? do you ever let junk food into your mouth?
i think, in a way, orthorexia is similar anorexia in the way that it controls your daily life. i think therepy is the best option, but i know you don't want to go. a lot of people don't know a lot about this...i don't know much myself. i wish i could help you...

*hugs*
i don't know much about it to be honest..
if you don't want to see a doctor perhaps try to break out the habit yuorself. i was interested in what you said and i found these websites informative -
http://www.beyondveg.com/billings-t/...rexia-1a.shtml
http://www.orthorexia.com/
i know they dont really help you to stop obsessing much i find it's always good to know other people are suffering from it too and that youre not alone.
good luck hun

The thing is that, at the moment, I'm trying to convince myself how stupid it is - I mean, the whole thinking about which food is best for me etc., and how I felt so much better before I started doing it. I just thought that I might get more energy from eating the right food, but it's as if there's a voice in my head telling me "maybe I don't even want more energy?". So it is as if I'm trying to change myself in terms of becoming more energetic etc., when I was actually feeling better and more like myself beforehand. It's a way of trying to change myself, I guess. I used to feel some kind of victory (and that really disgusts) because I eat/ate so much better than everyone. And yes, I eat chocolate and cake etc. now...but I couldn't even enjoy my birthday cake cos I thought it was bad for me (even though I normally always loved it).
The whole orthorexia thing has made me miserable, I feel less like myself and so on. I'm just so scared of gaining weight - but having said that, eating healthily didn't even make me lose weight!! I was at the same weight before I started the whole thing.

Thanks for reading this extra long post!!