im not raging for the most part and i am also to blame for my unhappiness here --- i shouldve moved on months ago.
its just when things that are retarded happen i feel like sending out a mass **** yall email.

i have a good handfull of colleagues that i can use if i need a reference. i even have my direct manager fooled thinking i dont hate her dumb ***.

but it wouldnt be "me" if i didnt send at least one line of sharp tongued ****ery

The funny thing about "networking" is that the world has yet to wake up and question why its so important maintain a contact list to please the person you are doing a job, the person you are unburdening for a slice of their wealth. The rituals of the working world have reach a level of absurdity that you have to drink something strong to sober up from just to regain your sanity.

I mean lets examine this statement: "hi my name is bob we worked at widget corp. I never really knew you because we weren't in the same department but can I put you on my linked in list in case a job opens up. if you help me advance professionally I'll put you on my christmas card list"

Don't complain to me about the world all of you are living in. You made it this way.

My advice: pack up and leave quietly. If you want to hurt your employer. don't ruin your reputation inside their building. ruin their reputation outside of it.

tell anyone who is interested to know what their worst practices/anecdotes are in hiring, in compensation, or things that were said by bosses to employees. Needless to say, if the first amendment didn't exist corporate control over the company "image" would be almost absolute in this society.

ugh im kind of bummed out
i spent so much time hating my job the past 2 out of 5 years. wasted so much time not making the most of it in the beginning, not taking advantage of being fresh talent, not being open, not asking for more things to be involved in when i was bored. which kind of makes me feel like i need to cut out some of my retard internetting (like kr or ONTD while at work)

its just feels like a 50/50 loss

i expected to feel liberated (and i should, i am ) but i kind of feel like a failure to the core and ive been on the wrong path. and i dont know what to do next.

honestly ryan, i could do without your ****. lets do the whole different existences thing for a bit. we are invisible to each other, yes? blessings.