ok i didn't want to ruin the poetry thread but if this is meant to be in there well then feel free to merge

ive been working on this since saturday when i had my terrible run in with the H, big mistake anyway this is for my friend, though he will probably never hear it, any feedback on whether its good or shite would be appreciated

Filling in the gaps in my own life
All these things that God has seen
Will you hate men when you see the truth
Will you hate the real me

Picking up the pieces of a shattered life
The illusions and the web of lies
All these things that God has seen
I'm showing to you now

And will you hate me when you see the truth
Will you hate me as much as i hate me.

Ive shown you snapshots of my old life
All these things that God has seen
Framegrabs of depression to cut and paste
back in to your own

And will you hate me when you see the truth
Will you hate me as much as i hate me.

You can hang them on your wall
My painful montage, your poetic reveries
and play God with my pain,
say i push you away, that you did all you could,
that your hurting too
while i fight my demons alone

I am resigned now to knowing that you hate me more than me

you say you're bad bad bad bad bad.
but i can promise you, you ain't the worst i've had.
everything is so sad for you.
doubt i'll be here long enough to care.

(chorus bit)
everything's been going fine for me.
i've even made a new best friend.
but on those rare occasions when i think of you,
i'm still hoping you're not dead.

you say you're happy happy happy happy yeah!
but i can promise you baby that happy shit wont last.
you'll see your future in a dream,
you 'll keep running but you won't make up for your past.

(chorus again)
everything's been going fine for me.
it seems the ghosts have left my head.
and on those rare occasions when im actually thinking,
im still thankful i'm not dead.


killing killing killing killing killing in the streets.
eating and feeding and eating and feeding yummy processed meats.
buy a new car buy a new house buy a new everything you need.
tv tv reality tv study and succeed.

and im still thankful i'm not dead.